so as many of you may know, or dont know, I'm not attending college this fall.
is it by choice? hardly. unlike many of you privledged folks, we dont have money.
"kash just take out loans".
umm. didnt I just say we dont have money?
co-signer = money.
co-signer with no money = bad credit.
cosigner with bad credit = no loan.
loan + no money to pay it back = debt.
yeah.
[CCS] College for Creative Studies, straight played me on scholarship money.
and these loan companies is sharks.
I need 20,000 MINIMUM to attend school and have a roof over my head.
that 20,000 doesnt even include lab fees and/or luxiries/spending money.
taking out 20,000 in loans for ONE year?
thats completely unethical.
I dont know what I'm gonna do. I DO know I don't wanna be a bum my whole life though, I also know that I dont wanna stay in Cleveland babysitting my little sister any more.
This is really upsetting me. I'm extremely hurt.
And the fact that everyone on here has their page FILLED with things about starting college doesnt help.
But I guess its time to stop crying, and just [wo]MAN UP.
All the dreams I've had, all the wishing I've done, all gone.
It feels like my life is over. =[
I honestly dont see how people graduate from high school and then do absolutely NOTHING with their life. I have MAD friends like that, like, havent even ATTEMPTED to go to school. I dont see how you folks do it, its KILLING me not going to school this semester. And even though I WILL be starting soon, it's not soon enough.
I want to be in school NOW.
I dont wanna wait. >=[
anyway tho, I wish YOU folks the best of luck in school this fall.
have fun.
=/
Sunday, August 24, 2008
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I'm tell you like i told you before. Im send you my homework. And then you'll feel like its something substancial =]
we already talked about this, you know you'll be fine, with all this talent you have.
Maybe there is a reason you can't go this year (besides no money, you know what I mean)because a greater opportunity is coming
Damn mami. dats sum crazy shyt. but listen, u gon be aight. aint nobody gon be able to say u had nuffin handed to u. u worked for wat chu got. feel me. u is def. one strong ass WOMAN. i'll tell u dat much. and on sum real, u just encouraged me. wow. im definitely amazed at ur strength and independence...
i never planned for the future.. SHIT! i never expected to even go to college. i never filled out any applications until july when school started in august.. just so happen my father pledged omega psi phi at a private school in Mississippi called 'TOUGALOO COLLEGE' and it just so happened that every one in the administration was either an omega or went to school with him and were very good friends.. so geuss what? damien got into college. i still didnt feel as if i accomplished anything especially not with my grades from high school. so i did my first year and school was 15gs a year and i was there waistin time smoking and drinking to past time.. most of my lesson didnt even come from class.. they cam from the cafe.. the dorms.. and the club.. lol.. i never wanted to go to school.. shit i hate school.. ever since i was 13 i wanted to be a rapper.. and with out that dream filled i will always feel empty so i came back home to houston to save my parents money and went to community college i always registered but stop going to school i just always felt like school didnt teach me anything.. i mean in high school i could always pay someone to do my work for me.. thats when i realized its not wht you know surviving inthis life need for you to know people and have money.. if you have neither you will fail and be a bum.. now i just did one last semester of school and still have gotten no where im still considered a freshman its hard to balance a forty hour job and put a roof over my head and do 18 hours of school.. so whats more important.. school or livin on the streets.. in my case im not living on the streets fuck that.. so im done with school until i either have money or know hella people.. now im all about chasing my dream not about my parents dream.. fuck school.. ima do me.. school aint for everybody.. i feel you have diffwernt kinds of people those who are artstic and those who are scientific.. those who are scientific admire the artistics and vice versa because they cant do what the other can.. like a doctor has struggles so he may listen to music to releive stress but a musician cant do surgery on himself so he needs to see the doctor.. there fore the world is like a play everyone has to play thyre part... wht part do you contribute to?
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